Wake Me Up Inside (Evanescence fet.Linkin Park)

How can you see into my eyes like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb without a soul
my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
(Wake me up)Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)Wake me up inside
(Save me)Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)Before I come undone
(Save me)Save me from the nothing I've become
Now that I know what I'm without
You can't just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life
(Wake me up)Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)Wake me up inside
(Save me)call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)before I come undone
(Save me)Save me from the nothing I've become
Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life
Frozen inside without your touch
without your love
darling only you are the life among the dead
All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought without a voice without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life
(Wake me up)Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)Wake me up inside
(Save me)Call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)Bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)Before I come undone
(Save me)Save me from the nothing I've become
(Bring me to life)I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside
(Bring me to life)

Here's the link to the video.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zrH3knaiqrI

SPORTS DAY TODAY!!!!!

haha... was out in the sun like mad... until my head got so hot that i joked that I can fry an egg on top of it... then I was the flag bearer for Gryphon... srsly they should start changing and remaking their props and the mascot costume... damn tattered and old lah...

I waved to you today when i saw you, but why didn't you reply? I heard from your cca mates that you got the impression that i wanted to jio you... but seriously i have no such intentions... really i just treat you as a friend... nothing more... though i do admit that i was indeed smitten by you...

just some random thoughts in my head... you don't need to know what and who am i talking about...

listening to Evanescence's song Wake Me Up Inside... loved it since i heard it on a car commercial a long time ago...it's haunting...

and finally... WOOHOO I CAN BUY MY CRUMPLER BAG AND W890 WALKMAN PHONE!!!!!

haha...

sian...
now that eoys are over, it seems that all our minds are still running overtime and cannot stop. At least mine cannot stop yet...
which means that it leaves me with a 55% chance of going crazy within these few weeks...

starting to really get into the thick of stuff here with this CP thingy...
got a discomforting thought last night, sparked off by my recent msn convo with some of you reading this blog.

"what if my ambition and rush to be chairperson now is not fuelled by my ambition but by revenge against someone? what if I really be chairperson, would the world and the class see me as a person taking out another person simply because I have a feud with him?"

sigh... sometimes it's confusing. you think you are doing all this for everyone's good in the future in 3H, but when the road wears long, then thoughts like this start creeping in to make you question yourself. I know that my ambition has existed long before any feud, but when such thoughts come to me, i still don't know what to make of it.

I don't want to be remembered as the person who toppled someone in a spectacular coup d'etat simply for personal lust for power and revenge for some blood feud that is wearing everyone thin. I just want to do my part for the class, and as far as I can see, I want to take a more decisive role in the class. Not for personal gain though. I work for the class, not against it.

I don't know if you received my email by now, but yeah, your opinion to me is very precious. 'Cos now i have the impression that you are one of the few people i can trust to some degree. So unwittingly you become a very valuable asset to the class and me, since it seems that few people can think level-headed like you and somehow only you can hold me in check during the wildest times when the whole world seemed to be at war with me. seriously I must thank you personally, but i don't dare do anything now, since i cannot tell if time has washed the previous times of conflict and embarrasment and misunderstandings between us away. I can now just only hope that time will come.

ok enough of long rambling stuff..
for the people reading this blog, I want to ask you all some questions.

Would you support me if I ran for chairperson next year? Yes, no or neutral? THINK CAREFULLY and answer truthfully. Explain logically. relax, I won't go ballistic.

If I have already asked you this question above, just ignore it. For the rest, comment in this post. Thanks for all your advice. These are trying times for me. Thanks buds. :))

back posting again after a long time...
comparatively...haha..
now exams over there's pretty much nothing but slacking now...
though i would start on my Chinese hol homework asap to burn off all one shot..
waiting for Quantum of Solace to open on Nov 5..
James Bond is nice...
haha..

sorry last post a bit emo le...
but srsly I am cracking at the seams...

Though there was quite a debacle today in school...
sorry that I scared you ppl off with my reaction..
and sorry to Mr Zong too...

but like what i told Farrah later,

"I fight in every land and clime, for every cause but my own."

perhaps that's what I really want to say.

sometimes it's not that we have nothing to say and nothing in common. We just choose to be blinded by our misguided hatred of each other and hide from the truth ourselves. Because it is too painful for us to admit the truth and face it. I want to, but i cannot do anything unless you all do so as well.

"I want to know the reason why. But then, I am afraid to know the answer."

---A quote from someone.

back again...
sigh...
sometimes i find myself crying and laughing and asking myself these stupid questions.

"Why the hell must you be so hated?"
"Why the hell must you be so ambitious?"
"WHY THE HELL must you fall in love?!"
"Why do you make your life so difficult?"
"Why must you be so antagonistic to some people? For what?!"
"I DON'T WANT A COLD WAR, SO WHY MUST I BECOME THE PERSON I HATE THE MOST?!?!?!!"

sigh...
maybe I emo le...
thinking about being Chairperson nxt year.
recently my mind has gone a bit haywire..
the past ghosts of my past coming back to haunt me time and time again.
Like a broken record they play over and over again.
I can never seem to be able to get over the trauma that I inflicted on myself unwittingly.
Especially that l'affaire.
and that guy.
and that situation.

god hell I wish i had aspirin now.
sometimes I just want to scream CAN SOMEONE JUST SHOOT ME AND GET IT OVER WITH?!?!?!
why must i live such a tortured existence on this miserable earth?
Wars everywhere, people waiting to stab you in the back when you don't know it.
And above all, HER.

god hell.

sometimes I really envy you people. you all have friends. you all have value enough for people to care for you. not me. I guess that should everyone be kidnapped then maybe i'll just be hostage for everyone else, since I have nothing holding me back. You all have friends, people who love and care for you. not me.

Shereen, I should assume that you have seen my apology below.

srsly I think we should all talk. not that there is nothing to say, but that everyone is just denial of the truth. We don't dare face each other. we don't dare face the truth. And I am tired. I have not a lot of time left.

CAN I JUST CRY?!?!?!?!!?! DAMMIT WHY MUST I....... WHY MUST THE WORLD......

sobsob........

I'm Sorry (Buckcherry)

Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren’t the same
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.
I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry
This time I think I’m to blame
It’s harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die
I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry
Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It’s never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorryI’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry
I’m sorry baby.
I’m sorry baby,
Yeah.I’m sorry

Executive Order 99836:

STAND DOWN DEFCON status against South Nevada to DEFCON 4. Open negotiations will commence with any parties involved in any recent spats on this diplomatic channel.

Lord Nelson

This is something I saw on shereen's blog.

hello mingjun,
regarding your recent outburst in your own uh private blog, i have a few clarifications.
NOTE: Please do not get mad. If you're going to get mad, feel free to stop reading. This post is purely to justify myself and i have no intentions of defaming anyone. K thanks.The Blog Post.Shereen I did not change my name. Richardson is just another alibi for me. And don't call me a bleeding liar. I know you want to say the BLOODY word so say it lah! And I daresay that you have another name too.. so don't attack me for going under the name Richardson. Geddit? Anyway I didn't insult anybody what, and so what if i ask about myself? I'd rather know what others think truthfully about me when i ask them than everybody trying to play taichi and clam up. If you people would just say things about me truthfully to me when you know it's me, then what's there for me to ask you under an alibi for?? I'm not an oxymoron, and i definetely treat all of you well, so quit attacking me!!
justifications.1. i dont often use the word "bloody" because it's really crude. using the word "bleeding" is my habit and it doesnt really concern you whether i use "bloody" or "bleeding", because either way, I'm trying to say that you're a liar.
2. quoting from your above uh paragraph, you said "And I daresay that you have another name too.. so don't attack me for going under the name Richardson." and "Richardson is just another alibi for me.". from this i infer that you did use "richardson" as your name. but referring to various tags, you said that you-were-not-mingjun so sorry, may i ask, ISNT THAT LYING!?
3. you say you rather know if people disliked you. however, from my knowledge, i happen to get the impression that you yell or defame those we speak truthfully. i can give one strong example. (:
for example, on one occassion which i'm sure the entire class remembers, yuhao told the teacher you used roughly an hour to complete your entire chinese paper 1. is that not the truth? BY THE WAY, roughly meant that it could be a little before or after an hour so there is no need to get so worked up. instead you called yuhao a "son of a bitch" or from your blog a "towelhead".
another example, is a teacher. even though they've been patiently trying to get as the go-between and explain things to you, not only have you not learnt, instead you openly asked a teacher to go to hell. the proof is below.
-START QUOTE-shit, Mr Lim said that the class treats me well like a classmate. GO HELL THEN!!! everytime I accidentally brush against someone, be it in person on on his/her stuff or EVEN THE TABLE, everyone must mAKE A FRIGGIN' bIG scene out of it! "OH HE'S RADIOACTIVE, HE'S CORROSIVE, HELP HE IS ACIDIC!!! HIS HAND IS DRIPPING HYDROCHLORIC ACID !!! HELP!!! MY STUFF AND THE TABLE IS CORRODING!!! HELP MY HAND AND MY BACK IS CORRODING!!!!!! " -END QUOTE-
many a times even, even though our class decides to BE NICE and try to help you change, you yell at them to "shut up" and "dont talk to you about change". may i remind you that the world is huge, and you're just ONE PERSON (no matter how loud, how strong, how ferocious.) YOU'RE JUST ONE PERSON. and you cant expect the whole world to change because of you. we're HELPING YOU but you saw it as an attack saying "you have had enough of it".
4. from your blog post, you say that you're treating us nice. excuse me, define nice? from the above 3 points, which i'm sure is well supported with examples and elaborations, there is nothing that says we're not nice and you're nice. on the contrary, it proves how you constantly shout and lose your temper at us.
I was once told that it would make a world of difference if the class changes our attitude towards you. and I daresay for all, or at least majority of the class, that WE'RE TRYING. It doesnt happen to be easy you know. Not only are we not appreciated, we get yelled at thanks, very helpful indeed.
SO IN CONCLUSION,I've justified myself.
I'm not about to start a blog attacking whoever situation because I personally think it's extremely childish. So if you want to get all upset and think i'm doing things unfairly, i do welcome you to simply print out my blog post, show it to any teacher or whoever.
If you decide on a mild chance that you're wrong and going to change, we welcome you to post an apology online and we'd gladly try to help you again. although it's going to be even more chaotic and frustrating, we'll try.


reply??

I am sincerely sorry for my recent outburst on this blog if it inflamed any anger and discontent for anybody involved in any of my attacks. I guess this is the best apology I can have now. I admit i have overplayed my hand in many matters and most of the time my anger is misdirected to many innocent people and this made everyone's position untenable. I hope my gentlemanly apology will placate any of you angry now. And believe me I mean what I say. i can choose to ignore all this, but for the sake of everyone and especially myself, I will take this seriously. So Shereen I think I have replied satisfactorily to your comments. Thanks for telling me this on your blog.

MJ.

dammit...
failed physics...
sigh...
maybe i should drop it after yr 4 and concentrate on history...
maybe even take bio too!
Bio is WAAAYYYYYYY EASIER than physics...
at least for me that is...

posting lyrics again... bored sia...


I Don't Care lyrics
Say my name and his in the same breath
I dare you to say they taste the same
Let the leaves fall off in the summer
And let december glow feel flames
Brace myself and let go
Start it over again in Mexico
These friends they dont love you
They just love the hotel suites, now
I dont care what you think
As long as its about me
The best of us can find happiness in misery
(I saida) I (I) dont (dont)care what you think
As long as its about me
The best of us can find happiness in misery
Oh take a chance
Let your body get a tolerance
Im not a chance
Put put a heat wave in your pants
Pull a breath Like another ciggarete
Pawn shop im tradin em (tradin em)
Im the oracal in my chest
Let the guitar scream like a facist
Sweat it out
Shut your mouth
Free love in the streets but,
In the alley and i aint that cheap now,
I dont care what you think
As long as its about me
The best of us can find happiness in misery
(I saida) i (I) dont (dont) care what you think
As long as its about me
The best of us can find happiness in misery
I saida i dont care justa what you think
As long as it's about me
You saida i dont care justa what you think
As long as it's about me
You saida i dont care (i dont care)
You saida i dont care (i dont care)
Saida i (i) dont (dont) care (care)

sigh... another long day...
got stupid sore throat le...
Maths failed...
sucks...

But at least one thing is good.
and that is the fact that I settled X.
big time.
man he won't know how the hell he died.
In fact, I think he died already this morning.
want to play dirty? Man you got a lot to learn.

AND JOLENE STOP SPREADING MY INVITE OUT TO OTHER PEOPLE!!!!!
and SN too.
dammit...
sooner or later this place is gonna get crowded.

"What kind of peace do we seek? Not a pax Americana enforced on the world by American weapons of war... I am talking about genuine peace, the kind of peace that makes life on earth worth living, the kind that enables men and nations and to hope and to build a better life for their children--not merely peace for Americans but peace for all men and women---not merely peace for our time but peace for all time."

--John F.Kennedy

"War battered dogs are we, gnawing on a naked bone, fighting in every land and clime, for every cause but our own."

--Irish verse

"The whole history of the world is summed up in the fact that, when nations are strong, they are not always just, and, when they wish to be just, they are often no longer strong... Let us have this blessed union of power and justice."

--W. Churchill

You would always have me w you.
You would always have me standing at your side.
You would always have me loving you manymany.
You would always have me.
Cheers.
Because that B is not worthy enough for you.

found this on QW's blog. I can guess what it means. And I can guess who's it titled to. And I can guess who is that B she referred to.

Anyway, there's a backstabber in 3H. in fact, a lot of them. Well, maybe not backstabbers. Maybe they're just blind murderers.


To give them something to think about:

I guess dead people don't know what vengeance is.

--James bond, Quantum of Solace

sigh... class lunch today..
wasn't much lah, just going to a Japanese restaurant with mr Zong and gf pal.
Nearly ripped one of my toenail off yesterday, so was still a bit in pain when walking..
was the FIRST to reach Cathay...
nice place I must say...
UNTIL some apprentice of Sherlock Holmes started to "stalk" me from the above levels.
Apparently that girl isn't that good too, cos I heard them laugh so damn loudly.
Went playing a bit of hide-and-seek...
then saw SW and Co.

You know, I srsly CANNOT TAHAN that goddamn SW.
Big fake diamond earstud.
girly shirt.
Sweet tongue lulling all the girls like bees to honey..
god I can't stand him.

well, back to the lunch.
Went in first, then SW must sour it for me by ganging all the guys to sit at the opposite end of the table to ostracise me.
In the end the guys sat with me.
Food was ok..
liked the salmon roe sushi.
Gunned down 2 mugs of coke.
Was the only person wearing the class tee.
SO MUCH FOR YUHAO TO TELL EVERYONE TO WEAR CLASS TEE..

then everyone was making helluva racket there taking a field day shooting photos.
QW was squealing like a stuck pig in the butcher's shop.
VS wasn't much better.
Told her to keep her voice down, and she still retorted "YOUR VOICE ALSO VERY LOUD WHAT, SO WHY TELL ME TO BE QUIET?"
DAMMIT, I HELPFUL TRY TO KEEP YOU ALL QUIET YOU ALL MUST TRY TO OSTRACISE ME.

then SW took the cake..
when SN was taking some shots, he must go up and try to cosy up with, apparently in front of me. Or somehow he didn't notice me.
But she did.
Pushed him aside with one hand.
then HE MADE AN ACTION LIKE HE WANTED TO KISS HER ON THE CHEEK.
maybe I saw it wrongly, but anyhow, it looked like it.
Chose NOT to see it. chose to NUMB myself.

guess it was lucky I did.
but one part of my mind wanted to say "GO TO HELL SW YOU GODDAMN SONOFABITCH!!!"

Went outside to cool my senses.
Mu joined me too.
Thanks mate. Regardless of whether you did it on purpose.
Thanks.

Joined in for some group shots. The guys tried to make a joke out of me. haha, YOU ALL DIDN'T SUCCEED SUCKAS!!! HAHA.

Went home at 4.45 pm.
Some others wanted to stay to watch some stupid movie about a bunny girl out from Playboy mansion.
guess they wanted to be that bunny.
Especially SW.

Was sad that someone wasn't there. Supposedly went to tighten her braces. Too bad then. I had wanted to go with her today. So much for wishful thinking.


Was listening to a song by Rihanna. Cried when I listened to it. 'Cos it just reminded me of how scarred and hurt and torn my heart was now. Even after like what? 3 months?

going off. Do tag pls. Thanks ppl. God bless you, especially when you sneeze( FOR VT). HAHA.

My God I am so evil... ahha....
went surfing the web today...
decided to play detective...
so guess what?
I FOUND IT.
ah now what is that IT eh?
Won't tell.
But it is a blog.
With I suppose a lot of good info in it.

Just that.....
there is one TEENY WEENY prob.
it is private like this blog!
ahha...
so get the invite then.
er... that person won't give it..
so try again!
haha.


Executive Order 99862

A particular source of information has been found pertaining to South Nevada.
The CIA will investigate under codename SPINAKKER.
Defence status still DEFCON 3.
Peace talks being negotiated.

Lord Nelson.

do the same as before for the last exec order.
change the funny name into its 2 first letters.
secret code eh?

man I am evil...

woohoo...
weekends never felt so good before.
No high-octane mugging, sleep like crazy...
haha.

off to read Devil May Care again.

I CAN'T WAIT TILL QUANTUM OF SOLACE IS OUT IN CINEMAS!!!
ahha..

someone's a mole here.
spreading my invite around.
I WILL FLUSH HIM OUT.
AND IF ANY OF YOU ARE INVOLVED, I WILL ISSUE A LOCKDOWN.

got hooked on this song by Rihanna.
Love how it is so haunting with its lyrics and the use of instruments, especially at the start with the violin and piano.

Unfaithful(Rihanna)

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company
Hes more than a man
and this is more than love
the reason that this guy is blue
the clouds are rolling in
because I'm gone again
and to him I just can't be true
and I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...a murderer
I feel it in the air
as I'm doing my hair
preparing for another day
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
as if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A liar didn't have to tell
Because we both know
where I'm about to go
and we know it very well
cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...a murderer
His trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do thisAnymore (anymore)
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...a murderer (a murderer)
No no no no
Yeah yeah yeah

back again...
haven't been much in making new poems recently, but I found this very good one by Alfred Hitchcock at Popular.

Ascension

And if I go,
while you're still here.
Know that i live on,
vibrating to a different measure.
Behind a thin veil that you cannot see through.
You will not see me,
So you mush have faith.
I wait for the time that we can soar again together,
Both aware of each other.
Until then, live your life to its fullest.
And when you need me,
just whisper my name in your heart.
...I will be there.


touching? I think so.

Bought the new 007 novel today. It's called Devil May Care, and I tell you, it is stunning.

well, gotta go read. See you all next time.

haha.

WOOHOO!!!!!!!!! EOYS OVER!!!!!!!!
don't know if my maths will survive, but yeah, I'm happy the exams are over finally!!! Now time for com fever!!!!
haha.

There's been some frenzied attempts at a peace meeting for the two states in conflict now.
God knows when it will end, but i don't intend to soften my stand yet. As of now, defence status is still DEFCON 3.
And don't think that your blocking of my freedom of speech is going to work. Because just as you have rights to rant, I have the same rights too.
South Xangan is trying to negotiate a bilateral meeting sometime soon. Guess now I can only sit and wait for South Nevada to reply.

god, I hate cold wars.

and my blog is still quite quiet now. Well if you all are reading this you can post comments. i'm not banning all of you. BUT DON"T SEND MY INVITE TO OTHER PPL WITHOUT MY AUTHORISATION. thanks.

zzz.. bye..

"SORRY I MADE YOU ANGRY
I HAD NO INTENTIONS OF DOING SO.
I'M SO SORRY-.-" as quoted from THAT SOMEONE.


GODDAMN IT!!! ANY GODDAMN BASTARD CAN SAY THIS WITHOUT BATTING AN EYELID. YOU'D SAY THIS OVER AND OVER AGAIN LIKE A BROKEN RECORD, SO WHAT SHOULD I THINK OF YOU?!?! Oh so you had no intentions of making me angry eh?! TRY BEING ADMIRAL YAMAMOTO TELLING THE UNITED STATES THAT"oh sorry I NEVER WANTED TO HAVE WAR WITH YOU SO SORRY" AFTER HE BOMBED PEARL HARBOUR IN AN UNPROVOKED ATTACK!!!!!

goddammit, you're just like the admiral in the History eoys exams poster source. TRYING TO LIE AND FAKE YOUR WAY OUT.

you want to attack me, I say, COME FACE ME HEAD-ON MAN!!! DON'T TRY TO MUDSLING ME IN THE SHADOWS. I'M READY FOR ANY CHALLENGE YOU WANT TO THROW AT ME.

gosh, this world is a crazy place.



AND PLS COMMENT.

Here's the hottest song in town now.

Love Lockdown lyrics

Im not lovin you, the way I wanted to
What I had to do, had to run from you
Im in love with you, but the vibe is wrong
And that haunted me, all the way home
So ya never know, never never know
Never know enough, til its over love
Til we lose control, system overload
Screamin no no no, no no
I aint lovin you, the way I wanted to
See I wanna move, but cant escape from you
So I keep it low, keep a secret code
So everybody else dont have to know
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
You keep ya love locked down, you lose
Im not lovin you, the way I wanted to
I cant keep my cool, so I keep it true
I got somethin to lose, so I gotta move
I cant keep myself, and still keep you too
So I keep in mind, when Im on my own
Somewhere far from home, In the danger zone
How many times did it take til I finally got through
you lose, you lose
I aint lovin you, the way I wanted to
See I had to go, see I had to go
No more wastein time, we cant wait for life
which is wastin time, wheres the finish line
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
You keep ya love locked down, you lose
Im not lovin you, the way i wanted to
I met no one new, I got no one new
I thought No one knew, but got love for you
But im not lovin you, the way I wanted to
Gotta keep it goin, keep the lovin goin
Keep it on a roll, only god knows
Am I into you, baby im confused
You choose, you choose
I aint lovin you, the way I wanted to
Way I got to go, I dont need youI been on this road, too many times before
I aint lovin you, the way I wanted to
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, you lose
So keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, ya love locked down
If you keep ya love locked down, ya love locked down
Keepin ya love locked down, you lose

god another long day.
didn't know if I busted Physics or not, but well, at least I think I can do better than last time.
Apparently some ppl still hold grudges against me even after so long. I got sources, and from what I hear, tihs b*******t is going on for too long.

Here's some things.

Now THAT SOMEONE thinks that I am assuming everysingle thing she says.
THAT SOMEONE thinks that I have not changed and keeps accusing me for some things that she doesn't want to make clear.
THAT SOMEONE says she didn't mean everything she said after our war of words through SOMEONE ELSE.
And apparently she isn't interested of reconciling.
Despite my best efforts to try to patch things up.

MAN!!! IF YOU DIDN'T MEAN EVERYTHING YOU SAID, THEN OK!! I DIDN'T MEAN EVERYTHING EITHER EH?!
MAKES THAT FAIR?!?!?! DAMMI!!!!
YOU HAVE ANY PROB WITH ME, DON'T TAKE IT TO A OPEN PLACE AND TRY TO MUDSLING ME. DON'T TRY TO ACCUSE ME OF ASSUMING EVERYTHING YOU SAID. HELLO IT'S LIKE SO BLOODY HELL IN-YOUR-FACE LA!!!
stop lying to everyone and me and yourself.

I KNOW YOU STILL HATE ME AFTER SO LONG. BUT DID I DO ANYTHING WRONG TO YOU?!?!?!

and why the hell should I assume things?! to get angry for nothing?!?!?! I offer an olive branch, you don't take it in good faith, then I don't know what else to do. and let me tell you, I'm not schizophrenic when I say all this. And this is not about France trying to sign a peace treaty with Germany with a knife behind his back. It's you being the goddamn bastard Tojo who decided to get involved in a reckless war with the US by bombing Pearl Harbour. Sorry, but your history references aren't as good as me.


AND SOME OF YOUR GREAT FRIENDS ARE NOW IN THE SAME LEAGUE AS YOU AGAINST ME!!!

LOOK, THIS IS MY LITTLE VENDETTA AGAINST THAT SOMEONE, SO DON'T TRY TO GET INVOLVED BY PLEDGING SUPPORT.

WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT FROM ME!?!?! TO DISAPPEAR FOREVER FROM YOUR LIFE?!?! FOR THIS GODDAMN SON OF A BITCH TO BE DEAD IN THER DEVIL'S GARDEN!?!


god I was so damn close to swearing like hell here.

just 1 mm away.

you know, sometimes I fell a bit guilty saying all this too. but you srsly leave me no choice. You and some goddamn idiots in class who still find trouble with me for nothing, and can hardly wait for the day that this pariah dies.

don't force my hand..

I'm still open to negotiations though.





Executive Order 99821.

From this day onwards, the state of South Arizona will increase DEFCON status against the state of South Nevada to DEFCON 3. All units to mobilise. No strike can be undertaken unless South Nevada strikes first.
Also, the USS Nimitz CVBG under Admiral Luis Hanes will proceed to Varilux Sound for standoff duties against Varilux Sound and South Xangan.
Keep embassy staff from South Nevada under surveillance. Restrict movements if necessary.
Keep all diplomatic avenues open to South Nevada. Admiral Luis Hanes will be the mediator if any peace offer comes through.

Signed,
Lord Nelson.


don't geddit? substitute the funny names with their first letters.

goodbye.

and i'm not flaming THAT SOMEONE. This is called retaliation in kind. And i'm still open to reconciliations. Now the ball is in THAT SOMEONE'S court. We'll see how she plays it.

Back again.
woohoo chem is over. Don't know if I busted it or not though.

p.s. for those ppl who I sent invites to, DO NOT send the invite to someone else. Thanks. I don't want things to turn out as they were for my last 2 blogs.

first blog after a long time.
Hi everyone.
Work still in progress, so yeah, this damn place will be quite empty for quite a while.
ok, not too long though.

zzz, going for chem eoy test.

SA.