Sometimes I wonder if these years hav been or nothing.
Perhaps someday we will know.
But for now, do you know how badly I miss you?
Every night I think of you.

sigh.

New week.
Want to watch Transformers 2...
zzz seems like there are no decent movies to watch nowadays... maybe Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince may buck my trend of not watching HP movies...

lol.

Mafia Wars still rocks.
But Texas Poker is giving it a run for its money too haha

Perhaps we can go to the same school together?
You said that you wanted to take psychology in polytechinc.
Ngee Ann seems like a good idea...
What do you think?

hope to see you there.

and one more thing...

i really miss you.

Sometimes one wonders if our fate has really run its course.

Saw you today at the interchane.
Haven't seen you for quite some time already.
How's your life in CSS going?
Hope you aren't stressed out by O Levels this year.

You know, sometimes I have been thinking quite a lot about things.
Especially you.

I still remember the agreement we had in P6.
You were the school beau then.
I was just a normal guy going about his life.

Fate bought us together.
And very soon I fell or you.
I still remember we agreed to stay single till JC or university.
Only then would we start dating.

But recently you have been giving me a lot of mixed signals.
We are still friends no doubt.
But then, you keep hinting that I should get a girlfriend soon
Even commented that I should spend my teenage years waiting for you.

I don't understand why.
For four years I loved you, and you only.
And yet now I get the feeling that all this while I have been blind to the fact that this may be a one-sided affair.
I don't know why.
I don't want to feel this way too.

But somehow I do.

I still want to be with you and love you,
but has our fates really run its course and that we can only part as friends?
I want to be more than a friend to you.
Really.

Love's hard.
And I don't want to end it all after four years.
Sigh.

Just a mindless lovesick rant.

-Devious K.