Boring holidays.
Can't seem to have luck finding any work.
And I'm supposed to last till what? End February AT LEAST.
What the hell man.
Lol so here I am stuck at home almost everyday except for weekends when I go out with family or go out with Ruth.
Using the computer no less.
Guess I'm bored as it is.
But of course this long period of time also allows me to have a fresh start in the future.
In case any of you laggies haven't realised,
my name is not on the Year 5 SubCom list.
And nope I'm not retained.
I'm leaving everything behind.
Or almost everything.
Oddly, it is somewhat comforting that Ruth is leaving RV for poly as well as me.
I don't know how to explain it, but well just maybe having a good friend leaving allows me to be more secure and not worry so much.
But yeah, I'll miss some people.
All my choir friends.
Zhiliang.
YiJin,
Just to name a few.
Thinking of getting her a farewell gift to give her during choir.
Does Heffalump sound like a good idea?
Haha.
But yeah I will miss her the most when I leave.
Back to Facebook now.
Lol update in a week's time.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Lol last day of school passed yesterday.
Yeah I know I haven't posted in quite some time.
Didn't go to school.
Mum didn't see the point of me going anyway.
So I got stuck at home reading new books and Facebook-ing.
This may be my last year here in RV.
I mean, not that I have especially close ties with the school and the people I've been with for these 4 years.
But still there are still some people that I have my heartfelt thanks to give.
First, ZhiLiang.
For being such a close friend and confidant for all these 4 years unwaveringly.
Secondly, Ruth.
For being my counsel of reason, telling me all the time that the best way to heal wounds is to forgive others even if you feel groosly shortchanged.
Thirdly, Shereen.
For being my weather vane in terms of allowing me to know how the class reacts to me and being my second counsel in reason. "Let his worst side bring out the best in you." Yeah thanks for that. Really.
Fourthly, all my choir CCA mates, especially Jiarong, Weiping, Cherie, Keng Hwee, YuQi, Calvin Goh, Amanda, JunJie, GuangJie and Yiling for giving me such fond memories of my times in choir. Although I harboured thoughts of leaving choir before, but now I feel so lucky I didn't, because that allowed me t share priceless memories that are my happiest in RV.
And finally, I just want to apologise to Farrah my long-suffering chairperson in 4H, especially for what I screamed in your face during last Friday. I know you suffer a lot of responsibility and protocol whenever something busts up between me and the class, and I am very sorry that I gave you so much trouble.
And yes, you were right with your reasoning last Friday: Just because Japan bombed Pearl Harbour and conquered SouthEast Asia does not mean that it is justified for all the countries conquered to drop an atomic bomb or two like the Americans did as a sign of revenge. Haha for once you won me.
Cherish those memories, good or bad. They mark out your path that you took when you grew up and became a young adult. Learn from the bad memories and haunting pasts, for they tell you what works and what doesn't. Laugh and smile at the good memories, for remember that even in your darkest times they still bought that little bit of light into your life, and sometimes its that little bit of light that counts.
Perhaps if fate would have it we all can see each other again if I leave this school.
Remember me as the classmate who was an ardent confidant and supporter of his friends, the guy who perhaps talked a little too straight and hard, but above all, a person that existed not as a perfect person, but strove to become one with the class.
Going off to church with Ruth again.
Till the next time, God Bless.
Yeah I know I haven't posted in quite some time.
Didn't go to school.
Mum didn't see the point of me going anyway.
So I got stuck at home reading new books and Facebook-ing.
This may be my last year here in RV.
I mean, not that I have especially close ties with the school and the people I've been with for these 4 years.
But still there are still some people that I have my heartfelt thanks to give.
First, ZhiLiang.
For being such a close friend and confidant for all these 4 years unwaveringly.
Secondly, Ruth.
For being my counsel of reason, telling me all the time that the best way to heal wounds is to forgive others even if you feel groosly shortchanged.
Thirdly, Shereen.
For being my weather vane in terms of allowing me to know how the class reacts to me and being my second counsel in reason. "Let his worst side bring out the best in you." Yeah thanks for that. Really.
Fourthly, all my choir CCA mates, especially Jiarong, Weiping, Cherie, Keng Hwee, YuQi, Calvin Goh, Amanda, JunJie, GuangJie and Yiling for giving me such fond memories of my times in choir. Although I harboured thoughts of leaving choir before, but now I feel so lucky I didn't, because that allowed me t share priceless memories that are my happiest in RV.
And finally, I just want to apologise to Farrah my long-suffering chairperson in 4H, especially for what I screamed in your face during last Friday. I know you suffer a lot of responsibility and protocol whenever something busts up between me and the class, and I am very sorry that I gave you so much trouble.
And yes, you were right with your reasoning last Friday: Just because Japan bombed Pearl Harbour and conquered SouthEast Asia does not mean that it is justified for all the countries conquered to drop an atomic bomb or two like the Americans did as a sign of revenge. Haha for once you won me.
Cherish those memories, good or bad. They mark out your path that you took when you grew up and became a young adult. Learn from the bad memories and haunting pasts, for they tell you what works and what doesn't. Laugh and smile at the good memories, for remember that even in your darkest times they still bought that little bit of light into your life, and sometimes its that little bit of light that counts.
Perhaps if fate would have it we all can see each other again if I leave this school.
Remember me as the classmate who was an ardent confidant and supporter of his friends, the guy who perhaps talked a little too straight and hard, but above all, a person that existed not as a perfect person, but strove to become one with the class.
Going off to church with Ruth again.
Till the next time, God Bless.
Friday, October 16, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
Night Soldiers
Sigh.
Sorry to have neglected this blog for so long.
Yeah I guess when you grow older such things just lose their shine already.
O levels' in a few weeks, so just wanna wish En Chyee good luck and JIAYOU!! :D:D:D:D
Haha yes we're just friends.
You've been the person on my mind recently.
Always thought of seeing you in school every day.
I still remember me telling Ruth that the mere sight of your face is enough to make my day.
Haha guess that's true all the same.
Really can't wait till choir starts up again after eoys.
Since that's my only real chance of seeing you.
You know, sometimes I feel like I have a thousand words to say to you.
But ever since what happened last year (I don't think you readers need any reminders),
I never dared to profess myself to a girl anymore.
But perhaps...
Perhaps this may change...
Who knows? ;)
Till then, I'll think of you, and remember your cute little face with that goggly white glasses and bright smile as my biggest comfort.
Lol.
Guess this will do for now...
Oh and Ruth, YOU STILL OWE ME A LUNCH DATE TO IKEA.
haha.
Sorry to have neglected this blog for so long.
Yeah I guess when you grow older such things just lose their shine already.
O levels' in a few weeks, so just wanna wish En Chyee good luck and JIAYOU!! :D:D:D:D
Haha yes we're just friends.
You've been the person on my mind recently.
Always thought of seeing you in school every day.
I still remember me telling Ruth that the mere sight of your face is enough to make my day.
Haha guess that's true all the same.
Really can't wait till choir starts up again after eoys.
Since that's my only real chance of seeing you.
You know, sometimes I feel like I have a thousand words to say to you.
But ever since what happened last year (I don't think you readers need any reminders),
I never dared to profess myself to a girl anymore.
But perhaps...
Perhaps this may change...
Who knows? ;)
Till then, I'll think of you, and remember your cute little face with that goggly white glasses and bright smile as my biggest comfort.
Lol.
Guess this will do for now...
Oh and Ruth, YOU STILL OWE ME A LUNCH DATE TO IKEA.
haha.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Sorry but haven't been posting in a long while.
EOYs are coming.
Mugging fever again.
The last time I mugged this hard was when I was in P6 for PSLE.
Haha 4 years after, I am doing the same thing again.
Perhaps sometimes it isn't too late to realise that some things are just not fated.
And I've come to realise that we two are more friends than lovers.
Perhaps we have grown apart over these four years.
Perhaps all these could have been changed at the beginning.
But none of these matter now.
Because finally I realise that it is better that we are friends only and nothing else.
Somebody once said that "If you love somebody truly, let her go when you have to. Because if it was meat to be, she will return. If I wasn't fated, then nothing ever existed."
Now I finally understand what that person meant.
Perhaps our relationship may flower again some time in the future.
But as for now, I'm willing to let you go.
Perhaps you would want it too, since you told me that you didn't want me to waste my youth waiting for you.
I took your advice.
EOYs are coming.
Mugging fever again.
The last time I mugged this hard was when I was in P6 for PSLE.
Haha 4 years after, I am doing the same thing again.
Perhaps sometimes it isn't too late to realise that some things are just not fated.
And I've come to realise that we two are more friends than lovers.
Perhaps we have grown apart over these four years.
Perhaps all these could have been changed at the beginning.
But none of these matter now.
Because finally I realise that it is better that we are friends only and nothing else.
Somebody once said that "If you love somebody truly, let her go when you have to. Because if it was meat to be, she will return. If I wasn't fated, then nothing ever existed."
Now I finally understand what that person meant.
Perhaps our relationship may flower again some time in the future.
But as for now, I'm willing to let you go.
Perhaps you would want it too, since you told me that you didn't want me to waste my youth waiting for you.
I took your advice.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
New week.
Want to watch Transformers 2...
zzz seems like there are no decent movies to watch nowadays... maybe Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince may buck my trend of not watching HP movies...
lol.
Mafia Wars still rocks.
But Texas Poker is giving it a run for its money too haha
Perhaps we can go to the same school together?
You said that you wanted to take psychology in polytechinc.
Ngee Ann seems like a good idea...
What do you think?
hope to see you there.
and one more thing...
i really miss you.
Want to watch Transformers 2...
zzz seems like there are no decent movies to watch nowadays... maybe Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince may buck my trend of not watching HP movies...
lol.
Mafia Wars still rocks.
But Texas Poker is giving it a run for its money too haha
Perhaps we can go to the same school together?
You said that you wanted to take psychology in polytechinc.
Ngee Ann seems like a good idea...
What do you think?
hope to see you there.
and one more thing...
i really miss you.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Sometimes one wonders if our fate has really run its course.
Saw you today at the interchane.
Haven't seen you for quite some time already.
How's your life in CSS going?
Hope you aren't stressed out by O Levels this year.
You know, sometimes I have been thinking quite a lot about things.
Especially you.
I still remember the agreement we had in P6.
You were the school beau then.
I was just a normal guy going about his life.
Fate bought us together.
And very soon I fell or you.
I still remember we agreed to stay single till JC or university.
Only then would we start dating.
But recently you have been giving me a lot of mixed signals.
We are still friends no doubt.
But then, you keep hinting that I should get a girlfriend soon
Even commented that I should spend my teenage years waiting for you.
I don't understand why.
For four years I loved you, and you only.
And yet now I get the feeling that all this while I have been blind to the fact that this may be a one-sided affair.
I don't know why.
I don't want to feel this way too.
But somehow I do.
I still want to be with you and love you,
but has our fates really run its course and that we can only part as friends?
I want to be more than a friend to you.
Really.
Love's hard.
And I don't want to end it all after four years.
Sigh.
Just a mindless lovesick rant.
-Devious K.
Haven't seen you for quite some time already.
How's your life in CSS going?
Hope you aren't stressed out by O Levels this year.
You know, sometimes I have been thinking quite a lot about things.
Especially you.
I still remember the agreement we had in P6.
You were the school beau then.
I was just a normal guy going about his life.
Fate bought us together.
And very soon I fell or you.
I still remember we agreed to stay single till JC or university.
Only then would we start dating.
But recently you have been giving me a lot of mixed signals.
We are still friends no doubt.
But then, you keep hinting that I should get a girlfriend soon
Even commented that I should spend my teenage years waiting for you.
I don't understand why.
For four years I loved you, and you only.
And yet now I get the feeling that all this while I have been blind to the fact that this may be a one-sided affair.
I don't know why.
I don't want to feel this way too.
But somehow I do.
I still want to be with you and love you,
but has our fates really run its course and that we can only part as friends?
I want to be more than a friend to you.
Really.
Love's hard.
And I don't want to end it all after four years.
Sigh.
Just a mindless lovesick rant.
-Devious K.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Very pissed at he way technoloy can fail us when we need them the most.
First my goddamn wireless mouse managed to fail me when I was typing a document.
Then my handphone keys started going haywire.
Now Facebook Mafia Wars REFUSES to load.
DAMMIT.
Choir camp was a bit of a letdown.
Seems that after every year, everything gets worse somehow.
I mean, last year was a bit washed out.
But this year, it's a failure.
TOTAL FAILURE.
Not that I want to pour cold water over my juniors whom have put in 100% of their time and effort in organising this camp.
But seriously, last night I came back home disgruntled, tired for nothing and very dishevelled.
What the bleah.
First my goddamn wireless mouse managed to fail me when I was typing a document.
Then my handphone keys started going haywire.
Now Facebook Mafia Wars REFUSES to load.
DAMMIT.
Choir camp was a bit of a letdown.
Seems that after every year, everything gets worse somehow.
I mean, last year was a bit washed out.
But this year, it's a failure.
TOTAL FAILURE.
Not that I want to pour cold water over my juniors whom have put in 100% of their time and effort in organising this camp.
But seriously, last night I came back home disgruntled, tired for nothing and very dishevelled.
What the bleah.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Found this song by Rascal Flatts recently.
Called I'm Moving On.
Perhaps it is especially poignant for me at the end of the year.
For an entirely different reason I guess.
And right now, only you know what I mean.
It's especially hard to say.
But then, who doesn't have his or her dignity?
"I'm Moving On" (Rascal Flatts)
I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
Called I'm Moving On.
Perhaps it is especially poignant for me at the end of the year.
For an entirely different reason I guess.
And right now, only you know what I mean.
It's especially hard to say.
But then, who doesn't have his or her dignity?
"I'm Moving On" (Rascal Flatts)
I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
Friday, May 22, 2009
Time to say the goodbye I've always withheld.
Been reading people's blogs lately.
Found some posts intriguing.
In a spooky and unsettling kind of way.
Simply because I'd never expected such a post from that person before.
Well guess I'll say more later.
Here's a relatively new song from Rascal Flatts.
Called Here Comes Goodbye.
Hauntingly beautiful.
Found some posts intriguing.
In a spooky and unsettling kind of way.
Simply because I'd never expected such a post from that person before.
Well guess I'll say more later.
Here's a relatively new song from Rascal Flatts.
Called Here Comes Goodbye.
Hauntingly beautiful.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Of Angels and Demons.
Went to watch Angels and Demons earlier this week on Sunday.
And it was one of the best films I've ever watched.
Tom Hanks was great.
And so was Ewan McGregor the carmelengo.
Changed my blogskin today.
Finally figured how the hell does skins work.
Still tinkering about the skin though...
Maybe changing it to something else soon...
Depends on my mood and the response...
Though I daresay that some of you would say this skin is too girlish.
Haha.
That's Ewan McGregor as the carmelengo.
Funny to have a priest dressed in black.
That's all for now.
And it was one of the best films I've ever watched.
Tom Hanks was great.
And so was Ewan McGregor the carmelengo.
Changed my blogskin today.
Finally figured how the hell does skins work.
Still tinkering about the skin though...
Maybe changing it to something else soon...
Depends on my mood and the response...
Though I daresay that some of you would say this skin is too girlish.
Haha.
That's Ewan McGregor as the carmelengo.
Funny to have a priest dressed in black.
That's all for now.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Lol... haven't been updating for quite some time.
Just popped back here to clear some dust from this blog.
seems quite old le.
I think I'm losing interest in blogging.
Redundant in a sense.
So enjoy this blog and save my posts that you all like soon, 'cos one day they will be all gone.
Haha.
June Hols coming up.
Got a lot of catching up in schoolwork to do.
Cross-country I'm running competitive.
They say drinking coffee before running will boost stamina and energy.
Well let's see on x-country day then!
Wish to ask you out someday during the hols for lunch.
But when?
And will you be able to go?
Just popped back here to clear some dust from this blog.
seems quite old le.
I think I'm losing interest in blogging.
Redundant in a sense.
So enjoy this blog and save my posts that you all like soon, 'cos one day they will be all gone.
Haha.
June Hols coming up.
Got a lot of catching up in schoolwork to do.
Cross-country I'm running competitive.
They say drinking coffee before running will boost stamina and energy.
Well let's see on x-country day then!
Wish to ask you out someday during the hols for lunch.
But when?
And will you be able to go?
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Till All Comes To Pass.
I'm not an emo person.
No, really.
I don't think I am.
Well I'm being random here, since I am a bit loopy headed from sleeping at 10.30pm yesterday night when I woke up at 6.30am.
Yeah I know that's freaking early to sleep.
But well... I ain't nocturnal.
Planning to make a new blog for my picture archive.
Maybe tomorrow.
I don't know.
No, really.
I don't think I am.
Well I'm being random here, since I am a bit loopy headed from sleeping at 10.30pm yesterday night when I woke up at 6.30am.
Yeah I know that's freaking early to sleep.
But well... I ain't nocturnal.
Planning to make a new blog for my picture archive.
Maybe tomorrow.
I don't know.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Reminscing about a past flame only hurts the heart even more.
Long day for me.
Somehow or rather I can never sleep later than 10.30 pm everyday.
Else I'll get the worst migraines I can ever get.
Yeah I know 10.30 is FREAKING early...
but well, what to do?
I can't turn nocturnal right?
En Chyee, take care of yourself ah! Everytime skip recess don't eat, not good for your health! Heard that you came down with a fever today from Valerie. Seriously, you should rest more and eat more. Don't push yourself too hard. Else I see already also very xin1 tong4...
GET WELL SOON DEVIOUS K!
Somehow or rather I can never sleep later than 10.30 pm everyday.
Else I'll get the worst migraines I can ever get.
Yeah I know 10.30 is FREAKING early...
but well, what to do?
I can't turn nocturnal right?
En Chyee, take care of yourself ah! Everytime skip recess don't eat, not good for your health! Heard that you came down with a fever today from Valerie. Seriously, you should rest more and eat more. Don't push yourself too hard. Else I see already also very xin1 tong4...
GET WELL SOON DEVIOUS K!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Quantum of Solace.
Been listening to Quantum of Solace soundtracks non-stop all day, except when having lessons.
Suddenly I find many hidden feelings and thoughts coming up again after listening to the soundtracks.
Don't know why.
Odd, but true.
Thinking of getting a new coat soon.
MAybe a black one as usual but with a blazer-like gut.
saw this damn snappy jacket at G2000, but it costs a freaking bomb.
BUT SO NICE!!!
:DDD
Haven't seen you online for quite a while. I don't know why. You blocked me? I trust you didn't. But I really miss talking to you as we have done last time. really.
I wish I could talk to you.
But then, you never replied.
Why?
Suddenly I find many hidden feelings and thoughts coming up again after listening to the soundtracks.
Don't know why.
Odd, but true.
Thinking of getting a new coat soon.
MAybe a black one as usual but with a blazer-like gut.
saw this damn snappy jacket at G2000, but it costs a freaking bomb.
BUT SO NICE!!!
:DDD
Haven't seen you online for quite a while. I don't know why. You blocked me? I trust you didn't. But I really miss talking to you as we have done last time. really.
I wish I could talk to you.
But then, you never replied.
Why?
Monday, April 6, 2009
Long time didn't post.
Heard that my blog is the most widely-read blog in RV Yr 4s...
Like I believe like that.
Hahas.
Bought Quantum of Solace soundtracks yesterday.
SUPER :DDDDDD
HAHAHAH
Studies still can lah.
At least being busy with studies keeps me from reminscing too much about the past.
Not that I want to.
And yet not all of the past was bad.
Trouble is how to sift the good out from the bad.
Heard that my blog is the most widely-read blog in RV Yr 4s...
Like I believe like that.
Hahas.
Bought Quantum of Solace soundtracks yesterday.
SUPER :DDDDDD
HAHAHAH
Studies still can lah.
At least being busy with studies keeps me from reminscing too much about the past.
Not that I want to.
And yet not all of the past was bad.
Trouble is how to sift the good out from the bad.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
The World At Night
"True love isn't all about expecting the other party to give you her love fully and unconditionally all the time.
It's about you expecting yourself to love the other party fully and unconditionally, regardless of whatever may happen."
"The person who is the roughest on the surface is more often than not the most soft and sentimental deep inside. He is just so rough on the surface because he takes everything the world gives him and never makes a sound."
"So long as you are happy, I can always force myself to forget about you, swallow my tears and smile for you. Because I owe you too much as a friend. And you're a special friend at that. I wish you would give me more chances to atone my sins against you in the past for hurting you so much, but would you be willing to give me those chances? I don't mind being sad and heartbroken, so long as you are happy and content with yout other person in your life."
" I guess that everyone has a secret corner in their hearts, and that only the people they cherish the most can see it."
"Forgive her. Forgive yourself."
It's about you expecting yourself to love the other party fully and unconditionally, regardless of whatever may happen."
"The person who is the roughest on the surface is more often than not the most soft and sentimental deep inside. He is just so rough on the surface because he takes everything the world gives him and never makes a sound."
"So long as you are happy, I can always force myself to forget about you, swallow my tears and smile for you. Because I owe you too much as a friend. And you're a special friend at that. I wish you would give me more chances to atone my sins against you in the past for hurting you so much, but would you be willing to give me those chances? I don't mind being sad and heartbroken, so long as you are happy and content with yout other person in your life."
" I guess that everyone has a secret corner in their hearts, and that only the people they cherish the most can see it."
"Forgive her. Forgive yourself."
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
I don't wanna miss a thing.
"Loving someone is not as hard as missing the person you love."
How true it is.
I've been crying this past few nights.
Past visions and faces have flooded into my subconscious mind, old friends' faces floating past me, all smiling at me, all looking at me.
I miss you all.
really.
Like how we would always run down for recess and get to be the first in the queue.
Like how we would mindlessly talk about which singer we listen to.
Joking about each other.
I miss those days.
I miss you more.
Really.
For you, a thousand times over.
For you, a thousand times over.
For you specially, a thousand times I'll write your name and whisper it every night in my dreams.
How true it is.
I've been crying this past few nights.
Past visions and faces have flooded into my subconscious mind, old friends' faces floating past me, all smiling at me, all looking at me.
I miss you all.
really.
Like how we would always run down for recess and get to be the first in the queue.
Like how we would mindlessly talk about which singer we listen to.
Joking about each other.
I miss those days.
I miss you more.
Really.
For you, a thousand times over.
For you, a thousand times over.
For you specially, a thousand times I'll write your name and whisper it every night in my dreams.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
1. What disappoints you the most?
Having so many things to do and say, and yet not being to find a true friend to share the joys with.
2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
EEE... yer... actually I got three places... nono make that four... Russia (and I'm anti communist, what an irony), New Zealand, New York(TIMES SQUARE!!! :DDDDDDDDDD) and Korea.
3. What’s the most romantic thing you would like to do with the one you love?
Sail out to sea on my own cruise yacht, or just simply sitting at home on a rainy day cuddled up in each others' lap.
4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
If you're a moneypenny, yes. But for me... half yes half no.
5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
That I can reverse time and cherish the people I love more.
6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Obviously and sadly, no.
7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Family, friends (if I have any), and most of all, the persons I love.
8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Save it for university. YEAH I KNOW THAT'S SO TEXTBOOK.
9. What do you dream of doing in the future?
I've got a lot of dreams. Maybe I'll become a pilot in the air force or SIA, or work in the Foreign Affairs Ministry as a diplomat, or a captain of a cruise liner or oil tanker sailing the seven seas as a free soul. Anything that's high-paying and exciting. Or maybe even a history teacher in MOE ( HAHA I'd love to see myself back in RV teaching history alongsides Mr Desmond Lim) . Then maybe woo the girl I've always held a light to for 4 years already, marry her, then settle down in a seaside terrace house. I'd love to have two kids, one boy one girl. And if I can, I want to spend more time with my family and my parents.
10. Do you know who is super junior?
????????
11. What makes you happy?
To see the people I cherish and love, to spend a whole afternoon quietly reading at the library, going to some posh restaurant to have dinner, standing on the balcony on a clear sharlit night watching the heavens, listening to sad love songs and reminiscing past events and people whom I still think about every day. Hanging out with close friends who know me and trust me, knowing that I have some positive impact on others in school or around me, having confidence in my own potential...
Basically it's the small things in life that are the most precious.
12. What type of person do you hate the most?
Hypocrites, mavericks who are just plain dumb smart-alecks, backstabbers, clique kings and queens.
13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
Out of uni, happily married. :)
14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My soulmate, my family.
15. Do you believe in Life after Death?
I'm an atheist.
16. Missing question.
17. Which cartoon character you like most?
TOM AND JERRY!!!
18. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like him/her?
If I see the right opportunity, and she is a good friend of mine, yes.
19. Who do you always bully?
Erms... I'm the one getting bullied...
20. If you could have a superpower,what would it be?
Be a guardian angel to the people that I love and care about.
Having so many things to do and say, and yet not being to find a true friend to share the joys with.
2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
EEE... yer... actually I got three places... nono make that four... Russia (and I'm anti communist, what an irony), New Zealand, New York(TIMES SQUARE!!! :DDDDDDDDDD) and Korea.
3. What’s the most romantic thing you would like to do with the one you love?
Sail out to sea on my own cruise yacht, or just simply sitting at home on a rainy day cuddled up in each others' lap.
4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
If you're a moneypenny, yes. But for me... half yes half no.
5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
That I can reverse time and cherish the people I love more.
6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Obviously and sadly, no.
7. What are you afraid to lose the most?
Family, friends (if I have any), and most of all, the persons I love.
8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Save it for university. YEAH I KNOW THAT'S SO TEXTBOOK.
9. What do you dream of doing in the future?
I've got a lot of dreams. Maybe I'll become a pilot in the air force or SIA, or work in the Foreign Affairs Ministry as a diplomat, or a captain of a cruise liner or oil tanker sailing the seven seas as a free soul. Anything that's high-paying and exciting. Or maybe even a history teacher in MOE ( HAHA I'd love to see myself back in RV teaching history alongsides Mr Desmond Lim) . Then maybe woo the girl I've always held a light to for 4 years already, marry her, then settle down in a seaside terrace house. I'd love to have two kids, one boy one girl. And if I can, I want to spend more time with my family and my parents.
10. Do you know who is super junior?
????????
11. What makes you happy?
To see the people I cherish and love, to spend a whole afternoon quietly reading at the library, going to some posh restaurant to have dinner, standing on the balcony on a clear sharlit night watching the heavens, listening to sad love songs and reminiscing past events and people whom I still think about every day. Hanging out with close friends who know me and trust me, knowing that I have some positive impact on others in school or around me, having confidence in my own potential...
Basically it's the small things in life that are the most precious.
12. What type of person do you hate the most?
Hypocrites, mavericks who are just plain dumb smart-alecks, backstabbers, clique kings and queens.
13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
Out of uni, happily married. :)
14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
My soulmate, my family.
15. Do you believe in Life after Death?
I'm an atheist.
16. Missing question.
17. Which cartoon character you like most?
TOM AND JERRY!!!
18. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like him/her?
If I see the right opportunity, and she is a good friend of mine, yes.
19. Who do you always bully?
Erms... I'm the one getting bullied...
20. If you could have a superpower,what would it be?
Be a guardian angel to the people that I love and care about.
"You are my nobody, that's why I don't treat you like a friend."
"You're only an acquaintance."
Perhaps that was really what you truly felt.
Just that you didn't admit it.
I thought that I could trust some people to be my friend or confidant.
Sometimes I am right.
Sometimes I am wrong.
But more often that not, I find it hard to distinguish between right and wrong choices.
You are one of them.
You know how much I envy you in class?
How much I want to just pluck up the courage and go to you and your friends and join in, just to reassure myself that I'm still in this class?
I've got a million things I could say to a friend who could listen.
And yet I find it so hard to find one.
You were one person I wanted to find a confidant in.
Sometimes you were one.
And yet sometimes, you and I act more like we never knew each other.
Is it because of past events?
Is it just me?
Or you?
I'm really sorry if I have been too cold and detached from the world.
And I feel really bad to treat you like a common person whom I do not know.
But then, what holds me back isn't you, but my fear of your friends.
How they would roll their eyes to me, make cold snideful inside remarks and even stage mass walkouts on me.
I can't change their stereotypical mindset towards me.
But how am I to know if you haven't become them too?
With every day that passes, I get the feeling that you are drifting away from me more and more, and that you want it that way.
No wonder you said that I'm a nobody to you.
But I tried my best in all that I did.
I just need some reassurance.
That I'm on the right path.
That I just need to hold on longer.
that I will always have friends to rely on.
And above all, I wish that those words will come from someone in my class.
Someone whom I know I can trust.
Are you the one?
I really wish so.
"What hurts the most, is being so close
and having so much to say, yet watching you walk away."
-S
"You're only an acquaintance."
Perhaps that was really what you truly felt.
Just that you didn't admit it.
I thought that I could trust some people to be my friend or confidant.
Sometimes I am right.
Sometimes I am wrong.
But more often that not, I find it hard to distinguish between right and wrong choices.
You are one of them.
You know how much I envy you in class?
How much I want to just pluck up the courage and go to you and your friends and join in, just to reassure myself that I'm still in this class?
I've got a million things I could say to a friend who could listen.
And yet I find it so hard to find one.
You were one person I wanted to find a confidant in.
Sometimes you were one.
And yet sometimes, you and I act more like we never knew each other.
Is it because of past events?
Is it just me?
Or you?
I'm really sorry if I have been too cold and detached from the world.
And I feel really bad to treat you like a common person whom I do not know.
But then, what holds me back isn't you, but my fear of your friends.
How they would roll their eyes to me, make cold snideful inside remarks and even stage mass walkouts on me.
I can't change their stereotypical mindset towards me.
But how am I to know if you haven't become them too?
With every day that passes, I get the feeling that you are drifting away from me more and more, and that you want it that way.
No wonder you said that I'm a nobody to you.
But I tried my best in all that I did.
I just need some reassurance.
That I'm on the right path.
That I just need to hold on longer.
that I will always have friends to rely on.
And above all, I wish that those words will come from someone in my class.
Someone whom I know I can trust.
Are you the one?
I really wish so.
"What hurts the most, is being so close
and having so much to say, yet watching you walk away."
-S
In case you people are dumb enough not to know, my msn message last night was meant for you to know.
IT WASN'T AN ACCIDENT.
PERIOD.
AT LEAST I MAKE IT VERY CLEAR.
AND NOT DEAL IN SOME BACKHAND POLITICS IN CLASS THE WAY YOU ALL DO.
And thanks, Sonjia.
It's Norine not Noreen.
My fault for that error.
IT WASN'T AN ACCIDENT.
PERIOD.
AT LEAST I MAKE IT VERY CLEAR.
AND NOT DEAL IN SOME BACKHAND POLITICS IN CLASS THE WAY YOU ALL DO.
And thanks, Sonjia.
It's Norine not Noreen.
My fault for that error.
And if you all are not happy with what I write, I HEREBY WELCOME YOU TO LODGE A MASS REPORT TO THE TEACHERS. IN FACT, I'M EXPECTING IT. SO DON'T DISAPPOINT ME.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Am a bit emo and angry and sad today.
And tired too.
Went to Semakau today.
Trip was fine overall.
Enjoyed it.
Wore my sunglasses.
But seriously, I really don't know why, but I always seem to get ostracised by the class for no goddamn reason.
When I was in the bus and sat behind, everyone ran to the front.
When I sat in front, everyone ran behind.
When I was on the boat, nobody wanted to sit with me when I sat near the window, and Claudia had to be half-coerced to sit beside me as a buffer.
Everyone tries to avoid me all the time.
When we returned on the boat, everyone didn't want to sit on the bench I was occupying even though they all knew there weren't enough seats.
Only Alfreda was kind-hearted enough to tell you people off for ostracising me and offered to sit beside me.
Seriously, WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!?!
I am not loud anymore.
I keep silent most of the time.
I listen more than I speak.
My temper rarely flares up.
I never do anything to provoke you people.
BUT WHY ARE YOU ALL STILL OSTRACISING ME?!?
HELL MAN WE ARE STILL A CLASS. AS MUCH A LONER I AM, I STILL WANT A PART IN THIS CLASS.
BUT I DON'T GET IT. PERIOD.
RECESS, EVERYONE SHUNS ME.
ON THE BUS, EVERYONE SHUNS ME AND GRUMBLES WHEN I TAKE THEIR PERCEIVED "BEST SEATS".
SAME ON THE BOAT.
SAME EVERYWHERE!
Hell man what must I do to make you all stop trying to push me away from the class like I'm a nobody?
I know many people in class hold a very negative stereotype of me.
Jolene, Valerie, Shirleen, Muxin, Frederick,Yuhao ,Noreen , Ziqi , Ximeng.
And the rest of you in class?
YOU ALL ONLY KNOW HOW TO FOLLOW YOUR FRIENDS ON TURNING YOUR BACKS TO ME.
EVEN WHEN I NEVER MEANT ANY HARM TO ANYBODY IN CLASS.
I find it hard for someone to stop wearing coloured glasses to look at me and start treating me like a normal human being who needs friends and not enemies.
It took a lot of courage for Alfreda to stand up for me today.
I admire her for that.
And what's the really ironic part?
I THOUGHT SHE WOULD BE THE LAST PERSON TO RESPOND IN SUCH A WAY, THAT SOME OF YOU IN CLASS WERE MORE EMPATHIC FIRST.
BUT WHAT DO I SEE?
ALL OF YOU ARE WEAK-BACKBONED IN YOUR EMPATHY AND ONLY KNOW THE EASY WAY TO STEREOTYPE PEOPLE!!!
HELL I ADMIT I STILL HAVE A FEW SCORES TO SETTLE WITH SOME PEOPLE.
BUT I DON'T LET THEM CLOUD MY VIEWS AND IMPRESSIONS OF ANY OF YOU!
HELL ONE THING IS ONE THING.
I DO NOT MIX PAST EVENTS UP WITH PRESENT EVENTS!
AND THE PEOPLE WHOM I THOUGHT I COULD RELY ON AS FRIENDS?
WHERE WERE ALL OF YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU?
NONE OF YOU STOOD UP FOR ME!
IT TOOK SOMEONE FROM ANOTHER CLASS TO STAND UP FOR ME!!
IS THIS HOW YOU TREAT A FELLOW CLASSMATE!?!?!?
I DON'T WANT TO SAY OUT WHO I THOUGHT WERE MY FRIENDS, BECAUSE THIS WOULD BACKLASH ON EVERYBODY.
BUT YOU ALL KNOW IT.
YOU KNOW IT.
YOU KNOW THAT IT IS YOU THAT I AM TALKING ABOUT.
YOU WHOM I SMSED WHEN MY MUM WAS IN HOSPITAL LAST MONTH.
YOU THREE.
BUT DID YOU ALL DO ANYTHING WHEN YOU SAW SUCH IN-YOUR-FACE STEREOTYPING?
NO!!
Hell I must get this off my chest.
And I got nobody to tell this to at all.
NOBODY!
DO I DESERVE THIS ISOLATION OR WHAT?!?!
MUST YOU ALL BE SO COLD TO ME?!?!?!?
IS A LITTLE ACCEPTANCE TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR FROM PEOPLE LIKE YOU ALL?!!??
I only want to be in the class as a part of all of the class.
To have people whom I can trust without having to go through the same old ordeal of problems and then you people standing out to console me and then melting away into the shadows.
I am not the loner I am made out to be.
Neither am I so strong in my will anymore.
I just need friends.
I just need support.
Is that too difficult to ask for?
Am I unreasonable in any way?
I really don't know what to say anymore.
But deep in me, my heart is bleeding tears of blood.
And I don't know how long can I hold on.
Thanks for everything you did today, Alfreda.
Thank you.
And tired too.
Went to Semakau today.
Trip was fine overall.
Enjoyed it.
Wore my sunglasses.
But seriously, I really don't know why, but I always seem to get ostracised by the class for no goddamn reason.
When I was in the bus and sat behind, everyone ran to the front.
When I sat in front, everyone ran behind.
When I was on the boat, nobody wanted to sit with me when I sat near the window, and Claudia had to be half-coerced to sit beside me as a buffer.
Everyone tries to avoid me all the time.
When we returned on the boat, everyone didn't want to sit on the bench I was occupying even though they all knew there weren't enough seats.
Only Alfreda was kind-hearted enough to tell you people off for ostracising me and offered to sit beside me.
Seriously, WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?!?!
I am not loud anymore.
I keep silent most of the time.
I listen more than I speak.
My temper rarely flares up.
I never do anything to provoke you people.
BUT WHY ARE YOU ALL STILL OSTRACISING ME?!?
HELL MAN WE ARE STILL A CLASS. AS MUCH A LONER I AM, I STILL WANT A PART IN THIS CLASS.
BUT I DON'T GET IT. PERIOD.
RECESS, EVERYONE SHUNS ME.
ON THE BUS, EVERYONE SHUNS ME AND GRUMBLES WHEN I TAKE THEIR PERCEIVED "BEST SEATS".
SAME ON THE BOAT.
SAME EVERYWHERE!
Hell man what must I do to make you all stop trying to push me away from the class like I'm a nobody?
I know many people in class hold a very negative stereotype of me.
Jolene, Valerie, Shirleen, Muxin, Frederick,Yuhao ,Noreen , Ziqi , Ximeng.
And the rest of you in class?
YOU ALL ONLY KNOW HOW TO FOLLOW YOUR FRIENDS ON TURNING YOUR BACKS TO ME.
EVEN WHEN I NEVER MEANT ANY HARM TO ANYBODY IN CLASS.
I find it hard for someone to stop wearing coloured glasses to look at me and start treating me like a normal human being who needs friends and not enemies.
It took a lot of courage for Alfreda to stand up for me today.
I admire her for that.
And what's the really ironic part?
I THOUGHT SHE WOULD BE THE LAST PERSON TO RESPOND IN SUCH A WAY, THAT SOME OF YOU IN CLASS WERE MORE EMPATHIC FIRST.
BUT WHAT DO I SEE?
ALL OF YOU ARE WEAK-BACKBONED IN YOUR EMPATHY AND ONLY KNOW THE EASY WAY TO STEREOTYPE PEOPLE!!!
HELL I ADMIT I STILL HAVE A FEW SCORES TO SETTLE WITH SOME PEOPLE.
BUT I DON'T LET THEM CLOUD MY VIEWS AND IMPRESSIONS OF ANY OF YOU!
HELL ONE THING IS ONE THING.
I DO NOT MIX PAST EVENTS UP WITH PRESENT EVENTS!
AND THE PEOPLE WHOM I THOUGHT I COULD RELY ON AS FRIENDS?
WHERE WERE ALL OF YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU?
NONE OF YOU STOOD UP FOR ME!
IT TOOK SOMEONE FROM ANOTHER CLASS TO STAND UP FOR ME!!
IS THIS HOW YOU TREAT A FELLOW CLASSMATE!?!?!?
I DON'T WANT TO SAY OUT WHO I THOUGHT WERE MY FRIENDS, BECAUSE THIS WOULD BACKLASH ON EVERYBODY.
BUT YOU ALL KNOW IT.
YOU KNOW IT.
YOU KNOW THAT IT IS YOU THAT I AM TALKING ABOUT.
YOU WHOM I SMSED WHEN MY MUM WAS IN HOSPITAL LAST MONTH.
YOU THREE.
BUT DID YOU ALL DO ANYTHING WHEN YOU SAW SUCH IN-YOUR-FACE STEREOTYPING?
NO!!
Hell I must get this off my chest.
And I got nobody to tell this to at all.
NOBODY!
DO I DESERVE THIS ISOLATION OR WHAT?!?!
MUST YOU ALL BE SO COLD TO ME?!?!?!?
IS A LITTLE ACCEPTANCE TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR FROM PEOPLE LIKE YOU ALL?!!??
I only want to be in the class as a part of all of the class.
To have people whom I can trust without having to go through the same old ordeal of problems and then you people standing out to console me and then melting away into the shadows.
I am not the loner I am made out to be.
Neither am I so strong in my will anymore.
I just need friends.
I just need support.
Is that too difficult to ask for?
Am I unreasonable in any way?
I really don't know what to say anymore.
But deep in me, my heart is bleeding tears of blood.
And I don't know how long can I hold on.
Thanks for everything you did today, Alfreda.
Thank you.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
The World Upside Down.
"I prefer to see the world in only three colours. Black, white and a single shade of grey. At least I don't waste my time trying to figure out every single colour of grey in between. It's more clear cut."
"Well ironically you seem to be wearing the same colours too. Black jacket, white uniform, and a single shade of grey glasses."
These words shocked me.
At how much my belief is carried out in my attitude to people, my way of handling things, and even how I wear my clothes.
But are they wrong?
Must they be wrong?
Do I need to doubt everyone for the sole reason of self-defence?
Am I too on guard everytime?
Am I too cold?
If you are in my class and happen to read this blog, PLEASE tell me. Seriously. I gotta know what are your responses. 'Cos I think I need to rethink everything I've believed in.
"Well ironically you seem to be wearing the same colours too. Black jacket, white uniform, and a single shade of grey glasses."
These words shocked me.
At how much my belief is carried out in my attitude to people, my way of handling things, and even how I wear my clothes.
But are they wrong?
Must they be wrong?
Do I need to doubt everyone for the sole reason of self-defence?
Am I too on guard everytime?
Am I too cold?
If you are in my class and happen to read this blog, PLEASE tell me. Seriously. I gotta know what are your responses. 'Cos I think I need to rethink everything I've believed in.
Monday, March 9, 2009
I dream of you every night, walking by my side.
Of how we could be together, walking along the beachside.
How you would laugh at anything I say no matter how lame I am.
Or how you would always give me your assuring look when I'm down.
Sometimes the weather reflects my mood.
Today was a dark heavy storm.
Gusting winds.
Sheet-like rains.
Which perhaps means that I'm in a bad mood due to some idiots in class.
Wished that I could go home with you everyday.
To be at your side.
To talk to you.
But then, we're worlds apart.
But I believe in fate about love.
Just as I have held on to this relationship for so long.
For you, a thousand times over.
For you, a thousand times I'll say your name when I go to bed.
Pray hope that I see you in my dreams.
Of how we could be together, walking along the beachside.
How you would laugh at anything I say no matter how lame I am.
Or how you would always give me your assuring look when I'm down.
Sometimes the weather reflects my mood.
Today was a dark heavy storm.
Gusting winds.
Sheet-like rains.
Which perhaps means that I'm in a bad mood due to some idiots in class.
Wished that I could go home with you everyday.
To be at your side.
To talk to you.
But then, we're worlds apart.
But I believe in fate about love.
Just as I have held on to this relationship for so long.
For you, a thousand times over.
For you, a thousand times I'll say your name when I go to bed.
Pray hope that I see you in my dreams.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Perhaps we are destined only to pass each other just like this.But for you, a thousand times to eternity.
To let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or ignore.
It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy or regret.
Letting go isn't about winning or losing.
It's not about pride or prestige.
And it isn't being obsessed or dwelling on the past.
Letting go isn't about blocking sad memories or thinking sad thoughts.
And it shouldn't leave feelings of emptiness ,sadness, or hurt.
It isn't all about giving in or giving up.
Letting go does not mean that you have lost and are defeated.
To let go is to cherish the memories, overcome them and then move on.
It is also about having an open mind to the future.
Letting go is also about learning and growing from experiences.
And to let go is to be thankful for those experiences.
Experiences that made you laugh, cry and grow.
It's about all that you had, all that you have now and all that you can gain in the future.
Letting go is having the courage to face change, not detesting change, and having the strength and willpower to change.
Letting go is growing up.
Sometimes our hearts can be the most potent remedy to all our troubles.
All it takes is for us to open that door in our hearts and clear a new path.
And then, you can finally be free.
Saw this on Brenda's blog.
Edited a bit of it here and there.
But then, how long do I need for myself to stop being so self-defensive?
How long does it need for me to forget past shadows?
And how long indeed do I need for myself to forgive and forget?
God knows.
I do not.
Perhaps the day when I finally can stop wearing my overcoat in school, then I can finally be free in mind and soul.
Because that overcoat is my armour.
The wall that I want to maintain for the sole purpose of defence.
But then, isn't it like the Berlin Wall, splitting the space between me and the class and the people around me?
Because of that wall, I can't trust anyone fully.
Because of that wall, I treat everyone as a potential threat.
Because of that wall, my heart is easily hurt by people that I considered close to me.
Sigh.
Life is hard.
But well, forgetting is a luxury that we don't know how to use.
Till perhaps the end of time.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
What will you do when you know that every move will hurt the person you love?
Funny why I've become so freaking guai.
Woke up at 10 today (WHY DIDN'T I STAY IN BED?!!) and studiously mugged maths until 11 WITHOUT EATING BREAKFAST OR EVEN BRUSHING MY TEETH.
Finished my homework in record time.
The computer then took over for 4 hours more or less.
Smashed the Japs 4 times over in battleship chess.
Been getting fatigued quite a lot these few days.
Sorry 4H if I freaked some of you out for being so pissed and emo for the last 3 hours on Friday.
But I really wasn't feeling very well.
Stupid migraine cocking up.
And to add to it, I can't take paracetamol due to some funny allergy.
WHICH PRETTY MUCH LEAVES ME DEFENSELESS TOWARDS FEVER AND MIGRAINES.
Damn.
School tomorrow.
Gotta sleep early.
And pray hope I don't get sick.
For real.
Since March is my sick season ever since P4.
*Sighs*
You know, sometimes you really should know when to keep your distance from girls you know. Just because you consider yourself more of a girl than a guy does not mean that you aren't still a guy. And it's pretty obvious even to a dumbass that you want to go STEP programme because she is going. HEE-LOOO?? She's taken. Go look for someone else. And don't forget that you are a guy, and that means you don't go around trying to stick to her every time.
Sorry if this pisses anyone off, but being a friend I really can't help but be concerned.
AND STOP CHANGING IN CLASS FOR GOD'S SAKE!
Woke up at 10 today (WHY DIDN'T I STAY IN BED?!!) and studiously mugged maths until 11 WITHOUT EATING BREAKFAST OR EVEN BRUSHING MY TEETH.
Finished my homework in record time.
The computer then took over for 4 hours more or less.
Smashed the Japs 4 times over in battleship chess.
Been getting fatigued quite a lot these few days.
Sorry 4H if I freaked some of you out for being so pissed and emo for the last 3 hours on Friday.
But I really wasn't feeling very well.
Stupid migraine cocking up.
And to add to it, I can't take paracetamol due to some funny allergy.
WHICH PRETTY MUCH LEAVES ME DEFENSELESS TOWARDS FEVER AND MIGRAINES.
Damn.
School tomorrow.
Gotta sleep early.
And pray hope I don't get sick.
For real.
Since March is my sick season ever since P4.
*Sighs*
You know, sometimes you really should know when to keep your distance from girls you know. Just because you consider yourself more of a girl than a guy does not mean that you aren't still a guy. And it's pretty obvious even to a dumbass that you want to go STEP programme because she is going. HEE-LOOO?? She's taken. Go look for someone else. And don't forget that you are a guy, and that means you don't go around trying to stick to her every time.
Sorry if this pisses anyone off, but being a friend I really can't help but be concerned.
AND STOP CHANGING IN CLASS FOR GOD'S SAKE!
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Screw my results.
seriously.
I'm like hanging by my skin now for my term 1 report card.
And I'm fully expecting a gpa below 2.0
Though my LA Chinese and History can hopefully save a bit of me.
dammit.
dammit.
I'm gonna cut back on my computer usage after March hols.
For real.
My time is almost up, and yet I'm still mucking around.
dammit.
Screw school.
seriously.
I'm like hanging by my skin now for my term 1 report card.
And I'm fully expecting a gpa below 2.0
Though my LA Chinese and History can hopefully save a bit of me.
dammit.
dammit.
I'm gonna cut back on my computer usage after March hols.
For real.
My time is almost up, and yet I'm still mucking around.
dammit.
Screw school.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
It's funny and intriguing how Fate can bring two people together in the most unexpected way possible.
It's even more intriguing when you had wanted to see her and thought that you never could.
Well that's what happened.
I thought that school would release at 2, so I could go to CSS as they were released at 3pm.
Until I realised that I had chem remedial.
seriously, I was swearing like hell then.
"Shitshitshit now I can only go at 4pm and that's like 1 hour behind them! WHAT THE HELL?!?!"
But then, a curious intriguing twist of fate.
We managed to go off at 4 on time. For once haha.
I took 963 to Clementi.
Then MRT to Boon Lay.
When I reached Boon Lay Interchange, I saw Bus 30 pulling in.
Then my primary school classmate Valerie got out.
She saw me, and said Ohmygawd.
"Why? Shocked that I'm here?"
"Why are you here in the first place?" Apparently she didn't know anything.
"Chem remedial. Why the fuss?"
"Because she is on the bus! See? She's coming down!"
I honestly went stunned. Speechless with surprise and delight.
"Good luck ah haha!" Valerie laughed.
And this is how I finally met with En Chyee again in a long time.
My oh my, I am so happy today.
Thank God I was delayed by Chem tuition.
Turns out that she was delayed too. By Bio remedial.
haha.
Who says Fate can't pull two people together?
I'm happy. Very happy.
haha you all don't know her anyway.
But well...
Let's just say that...it's a secret.
;)
It's even more intriguing when you had wanted to see her and thought that you never could.
Well that's what happened.
I thought that school would release at 2, so I could go to CSS as they were released at 3pm.
Until I realised that I had chem remedial.
seriously, I was swearing like hell then.
"Shitshitshit now I can only go at 4pm and that's like 1 hour behind them! WHAT THE HELL?!?!"
But then, a curious intriguing twist of fate.
We managed to go off at 4 on time. For once haha.
I took 963 to Clementi.
Then MRT to Boon Lay.
When I reached Boon Lay Interchange, I saw Bus 30 pulling in.
Then my primary school classmate Valerie got out.
She saw me, and said Ohmygawd.
"Why? Shocked that I'm here?"
"Why are you here in the first place?" Apparently she didn't know anything.
"Chem remedial. Why the fuss?"
"Because she is on the bus! See? She's coming down!"
I honestly went stunned. Speechless with surprise and delight.
"Good luck ah haha!" Valerie laughed.
And this is how I finally met with En Chyee again in a long time.
My oh my, I am so happy today.
Thank God I was delayed by Chem tuition.
Turns out that she was delayed too. By Bio remedial.
haha.
Who says Fate can't pull two people together?
I'm happy. Very happy.
haha you all don't know her anyway.
But well...
Let's just say that...it's a secret.
;)
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Tuesday.
CCA day.
Another rainy day.
Funny how I like walking in the rain.
Got funny stares from the NCC Part Cs and Ci Xing & CO. when they were in front of UG room doing some god-knows-what drill.
I wonder what's so funny about me everytime.
Seems like a lot of people know me.
Particularly in NCC.
*rolls eyes heavenwards*.
Stupid chem tuition tomorrow.
DAMMIT.
Now I can't go to Commonwealth after school to go home with her.
Screw it.
CCA day.
Another rainy day.
Funny how I like walking in the rain.
Got funny stares from the NCC Part Cs and Ci Xing & CO. when they were in front of UG room doing some god-knows-what drill.
I wonder what's so funny about me everytime.
Seems like a lot of people know me.
Particularly in NCC.
*rolls eyes heavenwards*.
Stupid chem tuition tomorrow.
DAMMIT.
Now I can't go to Commonwealth after school to go home with her.
Screw it.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Long time never really properly posted already.
Haha just so you know, most of my posts are impromptu ones that I didn't like really plan for them beforehand...
And it's a miracle that even so I can still keep my eloquent flowy writing in my posts.
haha.
Maths' quite screwed up I think.
LA, quite good. At least I'm getting my standard back this year and starting to turn out top-quality essays finally.
History? Everything I already knew, so lessons are just revision for me to refresh my memory.
Chinese? Dunno yet.
Chem? Quite ok.
Physics? So-so.
-.-
sigh...
My studies sucks...
But hopefully I won't be so bad in my studies this year, and well things look like they are lightening up for me these few days.
Here's a kickass video to end off.
Haha just so you know, most of my posts are impromptu ones that I didn't like really plan for them beforehand...
And it's a miracle that even so I can still keep my eloquent flowy writing in my posts.
haha.
Maths' quite screwed up I think.
LA, quite good. At least I'm getting my standard back this year and starting to turn out top-quality essays finally.
History? Everything I already knew, so lessons are just revision for me to refresh my memory.
Chinese? Dunno yet.
Chem? Quite ok.
Physics? So-so.
-.-
sigh...
My studies sucks...
But hopefully I won't be so bad in my studies this year, and well things look like they are lightening up for me these few days.
Here's a kickass video to end off.
Friday, February 20, 2009
In the end of all Things.
Got released early from school cca today.
haha.
And kind souls, please leave a comment if you come by here. Any comment will suffice. Thanks, since I feel this blog is a bit too cold...
haha.
And kind souls, please leave a comment if you come by here. Any comment will suffice. Thanks, since I feel this blog is a bit too cold...
Thursday, February 19, 2009
It all ends here.
Tuesday was a day of upheaval and change.
And for once, I was happy again.
Perhaps Fate only wanted us to pass each other as innocent friends,
but I can never win your heart.
I'm glad that you have found the guy that you love,
and I wish you both good luck in the future.
Felt my heart lighten up a lot after speaking to Clement.
No I didn't want to fight him anyway.
Just wanted to bring closure to the issue at hand and clear up some of my thoughts.
All's over now.
I'm glad, she's glad, he's glad.
Perhaps someday I will see both your names,
joined in holy matrimony.
And for once, I was happy again.
Perhaps Fate only wanted us to pass each other as innocent friends,
but I can never win your heart.
I'm glad that you have found the guy that you love,
and I wish you both good luck in the future.
Felt my heart lighten up a lot after speaking to Clement.
No I didn't want to fight him anyway.
Just wanted to bring closure to the issue at hand and clear up some of my thoughts.
All's over now.
I'm glad, she's glad, he's glad.
Perhaps someday I will see both your names,
joined in holy matrimony.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Cold Mountain.
Something big's bugging me now.
Something not-so-well-best-not-be-said.
But how the hell can you do that?
Keep such a bomb quietly, and hoping that having it as a low profile would save you from embarrassment?
And in the process, wounding me?!
And now when I want to get angry, I can't.
Why?
Simply becaus the person I want to be angry at is the person whom I have the greatest "tolerance" level of respect.
And also because I'm a gentleman.
WTH!
The cold rain. The cold wind. But worst of all, the cold and broken heart she gave to me today.
Something not-so-well-best-not-be-said.
But how the hell can you do that?
Keep such a bomb quietly, and hoping that having it as a low profile would save you from embarrassment?
And in the process, wounding me?!
And now when I want to get angry, I can't.
Why?
Simply becaus the person I want to be angry at is the person whom I have the greatest "tolerance" level of respect.
And also because I'm a gentleman.
WTH!
The cold rain. The cold wind. But worst of all, the cold and broken heart she gave to me today.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Valentines' Day
A quiet day for me...
Been kinda slipping into long lapses of memory flashbacks recently, and also caught myself daydreaming a lot recently too...
Sometimes during lessons, sometimes in the quiet mornings when I stand outside class a the corridor facing the canteen (yes I know that some of you think I'm odd), and yet sometimes at home as well...
Most of the time I would be like listening to music and thinking. Music that was sad and soft and slow and yet still very poignant to me...
And I would think of events in the past and the future.
Like how I was always a loner sticking out in class.
Like how much trauma I had in my primary school days when I was bullied day in day out.
Like how conflicting my heart and head actually are.
And then how my life has been since I entered RV.
How I came in, and almost chose to go out to Commonwealth.
And how my grades ain't that stellar even though I try my best.
as well as how I still face trouble having friends.
A lot of things.
Sometimes I would also kinda make up what I want a scene in my future to look like.
Like me getting my first and second class honours in university.
Or perhaps me flying above my home in an F-16 during my NS.
And a lot of times, me being surrounded by friends who care for you and are willling to accept you.
Sometimes I also dream about how I want my wedding to be like.
Maybe on the stern deck of a luxury cruise liner, facing out into a stunning sunset.
Under a clear night sky filled with stars.
Walking down an aisle covered in white carnation petals.
Me wearing a white tuxedo and carrying a boquet of crimson roses for my bride.
And my new wife wearing a white evening halterneck gown studded with Swarovski crystals.
And then dancing under the stars... blissfully in love.
Maybe I'll have three kids, 2 guys one girl.
Doesn't matter what order they are born in.
Then perhaps when I retire, I'll take my wife for a cruise around the world.
especially Alaska, which I see as the most beautiful wild landscape ever seen by man.
And what is my impression of my wife?
I really can't put a word or description to this question.
She should be outgoing, sociable, well good-looking of course ( but looks don't determine everything), caring, a good companion to me, supportive... and most of all a soulmate that I can trust my feelings to.
I guess saying more will surely set tongues wagging.
sigh...
And everytime when I daydream about all these, I will surely feel a bit sad.
Sure I may not cry, but well my eyes are surely wet as hell.
I like it in the mornings at school when I can wrap my jacket round me and stand at the "balcony" of the corridor of the container classroom and look out across the track and canteen.
Listening to quiet music, without my glasses on.
Tranquil for me to at least be able to enjoy a moment of solitude.
Life is hard.
Friends are harder to find.
And a true friend and soulmate?
Almost impossible.
Perhaps I am too emo and depressed at times.
And yet again, perhaps not.
I wish to be friends with you all in class, but somehow I don't have the guts to come up to you people and talk.
I don't know why.
I used to be do this with ease.
Now, I find myself getting more and more quiet, closing my feelings in and locking them up, for fear that others can see them.
But I cannot be like this forever.
can I?
I wanted to go out with some of you today on Valentines' day, and apparently I wouldn't be able to, partly bacause I cannot due to my parents, and partly because... I simply forgot how to have friends anymore.
The world ain't all black or white.
Shades of grey exist.
But then, why can't I see them?
I'm lapsing into emo-ness again.
But well, perhaps I still have my future to live for.
And perhaps if I really try,
my daydreams will turn into reality.
Someday.
Someday.
But for how long?
Been kinda slipping into long lapses of memory flashbacks recently, and also caught myself daydreaming a lot recently too...
Sometimes during lessons, sometimes in the quiet mornings when I stand outside class a the corridor facing the canteen (yes I know that some of you think I'm odd), and yet sometimes at home as well...
Most of the time I would be like listening to music and thinking. Music that was sad and soft and slow and yet still very poignant to me...
And I would think of events in the past and the future.
Like how I was always a loner sticking out in class.
Like how much trauma I had in my primary school days when I was bullied day in day out.
Like how conflicting my heart and head actually are.
And then how my life has been since I entered RV.
How I came in, and almost chose to go out to Commonwealth.
And how my grades ain't that stellar even though I try my best.
as well as how I still face trouble having friends.
A lot of things.
Sometimes I would also kinda make up what I want a scene in my future to look like.
Like me getting my first and second class honours in university.
Or perhaps me flying above my home in an F-16 during my NS.
And a lot of times, me being surrounded by friends who care for you and are willling to accept you.
Sometimes I also dream about how I want my wedding to be like.
Maybe on the stern deck of a luxury cruise liner, facing out into a stunning sunset.
Under a clear night sky filled with stars.
Walking down an aisle covered in white carnation petals.
Me wearing a white tuxedo and carrying a boquet of crimson roses for my bride.
And my new wife wearing a white evening halterneck gown studded with Swarovski crystals.
And then dancing under the stars... blissfully in love.
Maybe I'll have three kids, 2 guys one girl.
Doesn't matter what order they are born in.
Then perhaps when I retire, I'll take my wife for a cruise around the world.
especially Alaska, which I see as the most beautiful wild landscape ever seen by man.
And what is my impression of my wife?
I really can't put a word or description to this question.
She should be outgoing, sociable, well good-looking of course ( but looks don't determine everything), caring, a good companion to me, supportive... and most of all a soulmate that I can trust my feelings to.
I guess saying more will surely set tongues wagging.
sigh...
And everytime when I daydream about all these, I will surely feel a bit sad.
Sure I may not cry, but well my eyes are surely wet as hell.
I like it in the mornings at school when I can wrap my jacket round me and stand at the "balcony" of the corridor of the container classroom and look out across the track and canteen.
Listening to quiet music, without my glasses on.
Tranquil for me to at least be able to enjoy a moment of solitude.
Life is hard.
Friends are harder to find.
And a true friend and soulmate?
Almost impossible.
Perhaps I am too emo and depressed at times.
And yet again, perhaps not.
I wish to be friends with you all in class, but somehow I don't have the guts to come up to you people and talk.
I don't know why.
I used to be do this with ease.
Now, I find myself getting more and more quiet, closing my feelings in and locking them up, for fear that others can see them.
But I cannot be like this forever.
can I?
I wanted to go out with some of you today on Valentines' day, and apparently I wouldn't be able to, partly bacause I cannot due to my parents, and partly because... I simply forgot how to have friends anymore.
The world ain't all black or white.
Shades of grey exist.
But then, why can't I see them?
I'm lapsing into emo-ness again.
But well, perhaps I still have my future to live for.
And perhaps if I really try,
my daydreams will turn into reality.
Someday.
Someday.
But for how long?
Friday, February 13, 2009
Sarang Hei Yo... sigh.
Valentines' Day.
Another year when I feel damnempty emo sad wanna cry resigned...
Yet I promised my childhoodcrush sweetheart special friend that I will wait for her... no matter how long it takes...
Feels bad not to be able to see her and be with her...
feels even worse when you realise that you've fallen in love with two girls... and yet suprisingly lack the guts to admit it to your classmate... who apparently is involved.
Everytime the guys joke about what "Clement lovesShereen, Ci Xing loves Shereen, Alan loves Shereen, Shaowei wants to jio her" that kind of crap, I always put up a calefare face...
But seriously, do you know how bad and sad and angry and idiotic I always feel?
I never wanted to admit in her face and everyone else that I still love her...
But seriously, do you all know how hard it is for me to keep silent about all this?
I see her everyday.
I tell her that we are just friends, nothing more nothing less...
and then I lied... about my true thoughts.
I know this ain't a private blog anymore...
but I REALLY WANT TO LET THIS ALL OUT.
I DON'T WANNA DECIEVE MYSELF AND DELUDE MYSELF TO MY FEELINGS...
AND I DON'T WANT TO CHEAT HER...
AS WELL AS MY CHILDHOOD SPECIAL FRIEND.
I have a lot of things bottled up in me...
that I don't wanna admit...
but then...
can I continue to fake myself from the truth that I'm just a little too not over her?
I really don't know.
And yet, I really don't know how to face her and tell her...
And now valentines' day is tomorrow...
which leaves me even lonelier and sad and angry at myself and emo...
But who is to listen?
God knows...
Ok enough emo-ing here...
else I would daresay another scandal will start again...
But yeah... I got a thousand questions and secrets, yet I have no answers for them.
Ironic eh? How life and love ain't the blissful existence everyone believes them to be...
sigh...
got some sad love songs that I like to listen to here.
Found them on youtube.
Another year when I feel damn
Yet I promised my childhood
Feels bad not to be able to see her and be with her...
feels even worse when you realise that you've fallen in love with two girls... and yet suprisingly lack the guts to admit it to your classmate... who apparently is involved.
Everytime the guys joke about what "Clement loves
But seriously, do you know how bad and sad and angry and idiotic I always feel?
But seriously, do you all know how hard it is for me to keep silent about all this?
I see her everyday.
I tell her that we are just friends, nothing more nothing less...
and then I lied... about my true thoughts.
I know this ain't a private blog anymore...
but I REALLY WANT TO LET THIS ALL OUT.
I DON'T WANNA DECIEVE MYSELF AND DELUDE MYSELF TO MY FEELINGS...
I have a lot of things bottled up in me...
that I don't wanna admit...
but then...
can I continue to fake myself from the truth that I'm just a little too not over her?
I really don't know.
And yet, I really don't know how to face her and tell her...
And now valentines' day is tomorrow...
which leaves me even lonelier and sad and angry at myself and emo...
But who is to listen?
God knows...
Ok enough emo-ing here...
else I would daresay another scandal will start again...
But yeah... I got a thousand questions and secrets, yet I have no answers for them.
Ironic eh? How life and love ain't the blissful existence everyone believes them to be...
sigh...
got some sad love songs that I like to listen to here.
Found them on youtube.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
"Life's just a collection of lies. It's just that we conceal our lies better than the others, that's all."
"There's nothing fair about who lives and who dies. You gave her a chance. You gave everyone a chance."
"Have regrets, have revenge."
"In order to overcome fear, you must become fear, you must bask in the fear of other men and men fear most what they cannot see."
"You may hear me whisper in your ear, but you never saw me."
just some quotes I found meaningful after all these time.
sigh.
FongChuan says that I am too personal on my blog, but well, I'm not considered personal already... whatever I said ain't personal mate... so don't get me wrong...
Haven't blogged a lot these few times...
valentines Day is here.
And as usual I'm puzzling over what to buy and for whom...
zzz...
"There's nothing fair about who lives and who dies. You gave her a chance. You gave everyone a chance."
"Have regrets, have revenge."
"In order to overcome fear, you must become fear, you must bask in the fear of other men and men fear most what they cannot see."
"You may hear me whisper in your ear, but you never saw me."
just some quotes I found meaningful after all these time.
sigh.
FongChuan says that I am too personal on my blog, but well, I'm not considered personal already... whatever I said ain't personal mate... so don't get me wrong...
Haven't blogged a lot these few times...
valentines Day is here.
And as usual I'm puzzling over what to buy and for whom...
zzz...
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Sunday.
rest day for me to recharge my energy levels...
tiring week...
I'm thinking of making this blog open, as in I will move my open blog here... as for the old posts on this blog, I'll leave them here... anyway whatever that has been written is last year's stuff... so anyway now if anyone sees them makes no difference anyway...
so well... I will make this blog open.
Maybe like what Shereen said "private blogs are a waste of time".
Perhaps.
And then, maybe not.
depends on the circumstances.
and now, it is a waste of time...
so officially from today onwards, THIS BLOG IS OPEN.
haha.
" It's not about how much we love each other when we are together. It's about how much we miss each other when we are away from each other."
rest day for me to recharge my energy levels...
tiring week...
I'm thinking of making this blog open, as in I will move my open blog here... as for the old posts on this blog, I'll leave them here... anyway whatever that has been written is last year's stuff... so anyway now if anyone sees them makes no difference anyway...
so well... I will make this blog open.
Maybe like what Shereen said "private blogs are a waste of time".
Perhaps.
And then, maybe not.
depends on the circumstances.
and now, it is a waste of time...
so officially from today onwards, THIS BLOG IS OPEN.
haha.
" It's not about how much we love each other when we are together. It's about how much we miss each other when we are away from each other."
Friday, February 6, 2009
Found a cool song here...
It's by Simple Plan, and it's called Save You...
Love the lyrics and the song itself...
Save You(Simple Plan)
Take a breathI pull myself together
Just another step until I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
When I hear your voice
It's drowning into whispers
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
No matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you(Ahahaha)
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know(Oooh)
I wish I could save youI want you to know(Ohohh)
I wish I could save you (ohh)
Very nice song...
It's by Simple Plan, and it's called Save You...
Love the lyrics and the song itself...
Save You(Simple Plan)
Take a breathI pull myself together
Just another step until I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
When I hear your voice
It's drowning into whispers
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
No matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you(Ahahaha)
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away
Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know(Oooh)
I wish I could save youI want you to know(Ohohh)
I wish I could save you (ohh)
Very nice song...
Friday, January 30, 2009
Monday, January 19, 2009
haiz...
long time nvr update properly le...
Went to Hwachong today for some history seminar.
This HCI guy was making a fool of himself during the QA part...
lols...
nothing much to write about anyway...
But one good thing this week.
I met En Chyee today!!
long time haven't seen her.
She hasn't changed much.
Still looks the same as I remember her as.
seeing her is like a boost to my mind.
Missed her a bit...
Will be competing in the Chancellor's Shield in February, along with ZhiLiang and Alvin.
long time nvr update properly le...
Went to Hwachong today for some history seminar.
This HCI guy was making a fool of himself during the QA part...
lols...
nothing much to write about anyway...
But one good thing this week.
I met En Chyee today!!
long time haven't seen her.
She hasn't changed much.
Still looks the same as I remember her as.
seeing her is like a boost to my mind.
Missed her a bit...
Will be competing in the Chancellor's Shield in February, along with ZhiLiang and Alvin.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
another long day at cca.
Stupid performance for school anniversary coming up again...
sigh..
sometimes songs make you think about your past, and maybe revive some old wounds or happy smiles in your heart.
well this song is a bit of a bittersweet one, since apparently it's about heartbreak and love gone with the wind...
Unbeautiful (Lesley Roy)
Don't hang up, can't we talk
So confused it's like I'm lost
What went wrong, what made you go
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me
I'm unchangable
When did we fall apart
Or did you lie from the start
When you said, it's only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable
[Chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
[Verse 2]
I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
When We were still untouchable
[Chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
[Bridge]
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we're much better altogether
Can't let go
[Chorus] x2
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful...
Made me unbeautiful
Sigh...
Sometimes a bit of nostalgia is good...
but is this even nostalgia?
Stupid performance for school anniversary coming up again...
sigh..
sometimes songs make you think about your past, and maybe revive some old wounds or happy smiles in your heart.
well this song is a bit of a bittersweet one, since apparently it's about heartbreak and love gone with the wind...
Unbeautiful (Lesley Roy)
Don't hang up, can't we talk
So confused it's like I'm lost
What went wrong, what made you go
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me
I'm unchangable
When did we fall apart
Or did you lie from the start
When you said, it's only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable
[Chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
[Verse 2]
I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
When We were still untouchable
[Chorus]
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
[Bridge]
Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we're much better altogether
Can't let go
[Chorus] x2
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful
It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful...
Made me unbeautiful
Sigh...
Sometimes a bit of nostalgia is good...
but is this even nostalgia?
Monday, January 5, 2009
Shizz... 2nd day of formal lessons.
Boring day.
'Nuff said.
Love is hard.
I wonder if 4 years before are worth it for you.
But then, haven't we made a promise to each other?
That I'll wait for you till the time we meet again?
sigh.
The past is sometimes hard to let go.
And even harder to face with an open heart.
Just as I try to face her without my face feeling as if it's on fire,
or me trying to approach her as a friend and not get misunderstood by her friends.
Some random stuff here.
feeling a bit down today.
Boring day.
'Nuff said.
Love is hard.
I wonder if 4 years before are worth it for you.
But then, haven't we made a promise to each other?
That I'll wait for you till the time we meet again?
sigh.
The past is sometimes hard to let go.
And even harder to face with an open heart.
Just as I try to face her without my face feeling as if it's on fire,
or me trying to approach her as a friend and not get misunderstood by her friends.
Some random stuff here.
feeling a bit down today.
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